I'm Dreaming Of A White Christmas...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

... but i got a BLUE one instead...

i'm so happy!!

actually i'm dead tired... but guess what?? my mom got this hair curler n straightener set thingy from her client... now... it's MINE!!! muahahahaha!!

and who said teddy bears should come from boyfriends?? (wait.. i think that was me.. oops! *blushes*) Me BESTEST buddy gave me a teddy!! gonna snap a pic of it n post it up ere.. (me cam with me bro now...)

But i think the BEST gift is the gift of HOPE that was given almost 2000 years ago...
Is hope important??
Well... a man doesnt just die when he loses his breath; a man dies when he LOSES HOPE...

What is hope to u?
Have u lost hope in this cold hearted world??

This Gift was given to YOU and i...
I've received mine,
Have YOU?

Many More to Come!

You guys/gals have read bout my popo... now let me tell u bout another elderly woman in my life... my ah ma! (grandmother in hokkien)

She's forever smiling... despite the disagreements shared by her children, the smile on her face never fades. A woman of faith, a prayer warrior. She's got very POWdERFUL eye sight- 84 already but still dont wear specs!! keng le?? Her hands are super soft! Softer than mine!! :( hehehe! And guess wat! i inherited her long toes!! :S 1 day i must snap a pic of our feet :D

I've always wanted to b closer to her... but... it's like we have this wall between us... dont get me wrong, she VERY approachable. (i'm blessed with 2 very understanding old women as my grandmas) But it's just different lo... from wat i have with my popo...

However, sometimes... my heart aches for her... well... she's old... 85 d, considered old lo! :D but she seldoms see all her grandchildren and great grandchildren! Why?? family issues.. all revolving around UNFORGIVENESS!! aihz.. GROWN UPS!!

We feel rejected sometimes or maybe MOST of the time wen ppl dont acknowledge our presence rite?? What about elderly people?? When they reach out to hug their grandchildren, the kid turns around and runs to mummy!! How ouch-ing is that??

So pls! to the younger generation.. aka OUR generation.. pls la.. next time wen u have kids.. make it an effort to build the relationship between ur child n ur parents/ in-laws. I've been VERY blessed to know and to have my grandparents with me as i grew up. AND I MISS THEM!!

*wipes tears* :P

We celebrated my ah ma's birthday last nite!
Behold...

^The Birthday Girl and me! i think i inherited her fair skin too! :P

eh.. dont mess! my ah ma potential cam whore le! wakakakaka :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH MA!! i pray that she'll have many more healthy and HAPPY years to come and i hope she'll see me get married!! WOOHOO!! oops! *blushes* :P

altho she wont be reading this... but i do hope this will make u think of your grandparents or maybe ur own parents. Christmas is 1 day away... give them a ring or BEST if u could visit them. The best christmas gift 1 can give another is TIME!

He's Finally Learnt to LOVE

This morning i woke up with a dizzy spell... (have been having it for the past few days... but minor ones only la..) i was so afraid to get out of bed.. had a bad experience few months back... so i prayed! i told God.. NOT NOW!! cant afford to feel dizzy.. got lots to do n lots are happening!! CHRISTMAS!! COLLEGE RETREAT!! i'm soO excited!!

Thank God He answers prayers!! I'm ok now! but must jaga me self... cuz i dont wanna lie in bed n miss all the FUN! it's supplementary food time.. *boohoo*... :(

anyways... i got up.. watched tv.. no more cartoon cuz it was 12.30! la la la :P so i decided to watch BEAUTY AND THE BEAST!! my lovely fren Sab borrowed me her vcd (miss u gal!).. i have the video tape version.. ancient of days i tell u! :D

As i watched... memories of me being a kid.. n my cartoons senses awaken!! I felt so LOVES!! :D

Why must disney do CGI?? aiyo... cant they stick to animated drawings.. wateva u call it.. :P
Now.. it's like the richness in Disney movies are SUCKED out! :(

Anyways...
The Beast learnt to love.. n in returned.. he was LOVED

... and they lived HAPPILY EVER AFTER... :)

Will I Ever Sing this Song?

It’s always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my life

I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I’ll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I’ll let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I have never been so sure of anything in my life

He made the sun
He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One can’t move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it’s true
You’re for me and I’m for you
Cause my world just can’t be right
Without you in my life

He must have heard every prayer I’ve been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you He must have been thinking about me

Dear Mr Right, if i EVER find u... u are so gonna get a slap from me! WHERE have u been all these while??

The search continues... :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!

< After watching Barnyard, we went to this place... Is it Station 1 or The 1 Station ar?? teehee! Barnyard is FUNNY! in me opinion la.. go watch it if all u want is 1.30 or 2 hours of laughter!







Cam whores + unexpected flash > lights = Spastic Looking Cam Whores!!
< (carol seems a lil more pro ere cuz she was exposed to the flash light a few times d :P)

^ See the red mark thingy on the menu? (oh btw.. this is a pic of the menu) It says that the sundae is NOT available... BUT... my very mangkuk fren... CAROL LEE to be exact :P was so excited when she saw that there was sundae on the menu n she went like 'Ooh.. lets order!' -.-" my frenz never fail to amuse me! :P

We went there for supper... so... wat's there to do for supper?? PIG!!!

<>

some kong pou rice thingy... NOT mine k.. i dont eat rice for supper :P>

The mashed potato was mine tho.. i know.. it's still carbo... but i need it! :P

To be continued... (this blogger ar.. can upload few pics oni! ish!!)

Tears on Christmas Day...

Baby I miss you

Most at Christmas time

And I can't get you

Get you off my mind

Every other season comes along

And I'm all right

But then I miss you, most at Christmas time

EMO-FIED

Background music: Hopelessly Devoted to You, Olivia Newton John

WHY must u leave me???

am i not good enough?? What have i done to deserve your LIES???

I dont want to cry no more...

wakakakak! real or not??? muahahaha! these pics were taken by none other than me daddy!! During the dinner in Ipoh i mentioned earlier. Every1 left of course when i took these pics.

Being of age... n unexposed to technology... my dad is SUPER slow with cameras!! i laughed so many times while taking those pics!! teehee!

But no worries ppl.. those words are strictly directed to NOBODY k... it's just me... being super bored... at 2.20 am... after my exams!!! yippee!! :D

Oh ya.. just so u know.. that's a bottle of red wine lo.. i know it looks rather empty.. maybe that's cause it is... tee hee! well.. still got a lil more wine inside 1... but since every1 left.. so i played with it lo! wakakakaka! :P

The continuation of me Ipoh Trip...

Told ya i managed to PERSUADE them... teehee!

This is where my kong kong stays

And this is for u bandar kids that have never seen CHICKENS!! :P

Each time i go there.. i must take a pic with them. like i said in my previous post... they are getting old each day :(

my momma n i!! ppl keep saying that we look alike... hmm... wat day u?? (choose ur words WISELY)

This is a fruit juice that is found ONLY in ipoh ( i think :P) it's called "sa lei" in cantonese. Direct translation for bananas.... *cough* enoch *cough* :P it's SAND PEAR! :P

MORE FOOD!! (it is Ipoh afterall...) This was lunch. But i didnt eat. (DONT scold) i had breakfast at 9... which was 1 bowl of CURRY LAKSA!! then this lunch thingy was at 12!!! so how to eat le?? :P

Then it was the jouney back to CIVILIZATION!!! muahahaha! :P

For the Love of FOOD!!

it's one more day til my finals.. and wat have i been doing?? PIGGING!! *blushes*
on sat morning.. i woke up wondering why on earth did i agree to go to Ipoh when my finals will be on the coming TUESDAY!!!
(i was zombie-fied cuz i slept for 2 hours the nite before!! y??? cuz cell was to haps that my mind couldnt rest! p/s Jo: mext time dont play such exciting games ya... me heart cant take such excitement!! *blushes*)
Back to Sat morning... had to leave home at 8am!! *sobb sobb*

But the reason for me trip was answered when it was DINNER TIME!! See.. i went there to celebrate my mom's sister's mother-in-law's birthday... (so wu liao rite?? but i was INVITED k! :P)

The highlight of the nite was the GRILLED LAMB!! *slurps* It was GOOOOD!! y no pics?? cuz my Dory-ness lo.. i forgot to buy batts when i had the opportunity.. n my aunt wont take me to the shop cuz she was in a hurry :( anyways... i was a happy baby after the meal.

Then on Sun morning... oh wait! i had to sleep with my mom through out the nite on a SINGLE BED!! fuiyo!! sleeping was never that hard!! n they woke me up at 9!! and again... i was ZOMBIE-FIED!!! aihz...

Supposed to go for Dim Sum.. BUT!! my dad wanted to eat those fried stuffs... so...

pic taken for me Queen Sab!! she likes prawn mee... i dunno y... :P

^the other bowl is curry laksa.. wanted to take a pic too for u to make u food lovers hate me.. *Muahahahaha!* but it didnt look as appetizing.. so i didnt take lo :P

As i said.. i wanted Dim Sum... so my mommy went to ta pau Dim Sum for me!! We usually eat ere. Look at the people waiting to go in!! it's MADNESS i tell u!!

While waiting for my aunt and mom, wat's a girl with a camera in her hands to do?? CAM WHORE!! :P

Now where's the fun in cam whoring alone eh?? Hence, i got me dad and popo to cam whore along!! *muahahahaha*

Ancient of Days pics

Due to the lagging-ness of my bro and the not so brightness of me... *blushes* ere are some pics that we took LONG LONG time ago.. somewhere in Oct i think :D

It was a food marathon cuz in the morning we went to Puchong for DIM SUM. I suggested Cheras... but everybody was lazy la.. n Puchong nearer. Sadly... no pics for that cuz my SMART bro left the cam in his bag which he left in the car... -.- aihz... like i always say... MEN! :P

Then went to visit me aunt in the Palace, Mines and not that we are jakuns.. but then see.. my popo aint that young anymore.. so must seize every opportunity to take pics with her rite???

My popo and her grandchildren. As u can see, i'm the BEST edition la! MUAHAHAHAH! (it's my blog.. hence i have the rights to SS! if u dont like... TOO BAD!! :P)

This is me SS niece. Guess the SS-ness runs in the family! She half a Tan. So yea.. i'm thankful the horse is made of iron. :P

LUNCH TIME!! We went to Kajang for satay! altho i sound excited.. Malaysian food is still not really my type. Working on it already!! ><

Oh ya! my coconut drink :D

Now... the entire family PIGGING away!! woohoo!!

Pig No. 1 --> Mr Adam Tan, me bro

Mama pig and Baby (it's an UNDERstatement) Pig --> me aunt and cousin

Like mother like daughter (*ahem!* only for the 2 generations before me ar... so it doesnt include me!!) --> my popo and my mom!

teehee! The marathon didnt end there. We had dinner in Asia Cafe. (the carbonara man forgot me!!! ARGH!! :P) and FINALLY, supper in Starbucks! (but but but i didnt eat anything there... full ma.. :D)

-The End-

Super Dramatic but SWEET!!

Sarah was a cheerleader on the teamand had everything she ever wanted.Until one day... her life crashed.
Mom: Wake up honey. Michael'sdownstairs waiting for you.
Sarah: Oh my gosh. I woke up too late!I still need a shower and everything!
Right when she said that Michaelwalked into her room smiling from earto ear.
Michael: No baby. You're beautifuljust like that- now come on, I'mstarving.
Sarah: Okay.Sarah got out of bed, put on someclothes, took his hand, and walked outthe door to his car and got in.
Sarah: Where are we going? Rememberthat I have to be home by 1. I havecheerleading practice and you havefootball.
Michael: I know..
Then Sarah noticed that Michael wasreally pale-looking.
Sarah: Michael are you feeling okay?You look like you're sick..
Michael: Yeah; it's just my allergies.
Sarah: Are you sure? Did you go to thedoctor yet?
Michael: Yeah.. I went yesterday. Theyjust said to take some allergy pillsand that I'll be okay.
Sarah turned to look away from Michael.She knew there was something wrong.She has allergies and she doesn't looklike that.Then he reached out and held her hand.
Sarah: Michael your hands are so cold.I dont think you're okay tell me what's really wrong.. do we need to go back to the house?
Michael: I promise you baby;everything is okay.. they told me to go back tomorrow but I'm not going because there's nothing wrong with me.
Sarah: Michael you need to go! If they told you to then there is something wrong!
Michael let go of her hand and turnedback to the road and didn't talk toher the rest of the way.Sarah just looked at him.They finally pullled up to the resturaunt and ate breakfast.
Michael: Did you bring your cheerleading stuff or do we have to go back to your house to get it?Sarah: I have it.. do you really think you should go to football practice like that?
Michael: Yes Sarah. I'm fine.
Sarah: If you say so..
Michael: Sarah, baby, would I lie toyou?
Sarah: No...

They got back in the car and went to the field. They got out and started practice. Sarah was practicing a new cheer, but then out of no where she heard a boy yell,"HE'S NOT MOVING SOMEONE CALL 911!HELP COACH!"Right when she heard that she turned around and saw Michael on the ground just laying there, not moving.She ran to him but her dad pushed her back.

Dad: No honey. You shouldn't be right here. Sarah started to cry.
Sarah: Daddy. What happened? Is he okay?
Dad: Honey. Please just go back with your coach.

Sarah walked back and sat on the bench with her head in her hands while anambulance came and took him away. She got in the car with her dad and they went to the hospital.When they got there his mom was already there and talking to the doctor. They walked over and listened...

Doctor: You may want to sit down forthis.
Michaels Mom: Is he okay?
Doctor: Ma'am.. your son has lukiemia.We can put him on treatments, but hemight not make it because the cancer has already spread too much.

Sarah was shocked and began to cry on here dads shoulder.
Michaels Mom:Treatments?
Doctor: Well the treatments wouldcause hair loss... but it will help slow the cancer down.
Michaels Mom: But he's certain to die?
Doctor: Yes.. but we have had this surgery to clear out the clogs.. but it's possible that he will not make it.
Michaels Mom: I will have to talk tohim about this. Can we see him now?
Doctor: Yes. One at a time though.

Michaels mom looked over at Sarah and hugged her tight she knew that Sarah loved him with all her heart.

Michaels Mom: You go first sweetheart.
Sarah: Are you sure?
Michael's Mom: Yes honey.

Sarah walked slowly to his room andturned the knob.She just stood there, looking at himlying there weak.He was so pale and he had tubessurrounding him.It was painful for her to look at him.Michael looked at her and weaklysmiled at her.She went over and kneeled down besidehim.

Michael: Did they already tell you?
Sarah: Yes...
Michael: I'm sorry Sarah. I didn'twant you to find out like this.
Sarah: It's okay; I understand Michael.
Michael: Baby I love you so much.

Michael reached up and slowly ran hisfingers through her hair.

Sarah: I love you too Michael. With all my heart.. and I will be here for you 'till the end.
Michael: Im going to be okay Sarah.

The nurse walked in with Michaels mom.

Nurse: Its her turn now.

Michael looked at Sarah.

Michael: Bye baby.
Sarah: Bye.

Sarah kneeled down and softly kissedhis cold lips.Months went by and Michael lost hishair, but they were still deeply inlove and Sarah was by him everyday.Michael was getting worse to where he couldn't even play football, and the championship game was coming up. Michael was sitting on Sarah's porchwith her and her dad.

Michael: Coach.. I wanna play tomorrow.
Dad: Michael I know you do.. but Ican't let you do that.. you'll get hurt.
Michael: No, coach. Please. This might be the last time on the field for me. I want to be able to play one moretime.

Dad looked at Michael and then at Sarah. Sarah nodded her head.

Dad: You're a strong boy, Michael, and very brave. I think we can do this.

Michael: Thank you so much coach.

Sarahs dad nodded his head.

Dad: So what are you two doing tonight?

Michael: I wanna show Sarah something if that's okay.

Dad: Of course; you two be careful.

Michael took Sarah's hand and lead her to his car. It was completely dark outside when they pulled up to the football field.

Sarah: What are we doing here?

Michael: Follow me.Michael grabbed a blanket and laid itdown onto the field.They both laid there looking at the stars.

Sarah: This is so beautiful.
Michael: I do this often. I wanted to show you the place I love.
Sarah: Do you remember the flowers you gave me on our very first date?
Michael: Sure I do; I gave youlillies; your favorite.
Sarah: Yeah... I'll never forget thatday.Michael: I want you to always remember something Sarah.
Sarah: What is it?
Michael: I will always be with you..and I will always love you.. you're my one and only..
Sarah started tearing.
Sarah: I love you so much, Michael.
Michael: And I also want you to be happy.. I want you to marry someone,have kids, make a family, just live ahappy life for me.
Sarah: No. I will never marry anyone..im marrying you Michael
Michael: Just don't forget what I told you.Michael leaned in and kissed her. She pushed him off and jumped up
Sarah: You still think you can catch me?
Michael: Oh yeah. I'm stronger than I look.
Sarah: Then come get me.
Michael stood up and chaised her around the football field until he finally caught her. He laid on top of her and put her hands behind her back and held her there so she couldn't move.Then it started to rain and they were getting soaked but they didn't care.Michael looked deep into her eyes.
Michael: Who's the weak one now huh?
Sarah: Me (she giggled)
Michael: Remember what you told methat night when we were at dinner?
Sarah: No.. what?
Michael: You have always wanted to kiss in the rain with the one you love.
Sarah: Yeah?
Michael: Well your wish is my comand.
Michael leaned down and kissed her deeply.
He pulled away.
Michael: You're so beautiful.
Sarah: You're such a good kisser. (shelaughed.. so did he)
Michael: I better get you home.They got into the car and went home.

It was hard for them to sleep that night but they did.It was finally the big day and theywere all at the football field.Michael had on all his football gear,and Sarah was ready to cheer him on.The game began.The crowd was going wild for Michael while Sarah was cheering her heart out for him.The score was 36 to 36.All they had to do was make one morepoint and they would win.Michael had the ball and ran with allhe had to the touch down line and threw the ball down.He had made a touch down!Everyone was cheering.They had won the game!But for Michael.. he may have lost his life.He fell to the ground trying to catch his breath.Sarah ran to him and kneeled down over him.He looked up at her gasping for breath.Everyone was heading to field.Her dad stood infront of them.

Dad: Back away.. give them a moment please.. that's my daughter's love.
Michael gently raised his hand andwhiped her tears away.
Sarah: Don't die Michael.. I needyou.. I love you..
Michael: I told you this was my dream to win the championship.. to be in the big game.. to die on this feild.. I made history.
Sarah leaned down and kissed him,knowing this was the last she wouldever kiss him, the last time she would ever talk to him.She had so much to say but had no time to say it.
Michael: I love you baby. Tell Mom Ilove her too.. and tell coach thank you.
Sarah: I love you Michael. I love you so much.
Michael: I'll wait for you.....

Michael's hand dropped and he let go.He died that night on the footballfeild.Sarah cried for 2 months straight.Sarah was lying on her bed when herdad walked in.
Dad: Honey, it's been 2 months. Please get up. He would want you to have fun and be happy.
Sarah: I know..
Dad: Guess what.
Sarah: What?
Dad: They are building a new stadium.Isn't that great honey? Come on, I want you to come with me before they tear the old one down.Sarah got up and went with her dad to the field.They climbed to the top of thebleachers and looked down.
Sarah: It's like it was justyesterday. He was out there throwing the football, making that touch down.Her dad wrapped his arms around her and she began to cry.
Dad: I know baby., I know.
Then Sarah noticed something on the feild.
Sarah: Whats that daddy? Look. (Sarahpointed to the field)
Dad: Look like some flowers areblooming.
Sarah: Oh my gosh, daddy! Stop them!Don't let them tear this down! Please!Michael planted me something.
Her dad ran down there and stopped them.Weeks later the flowers had bloomed.Her and her dad went to look at them.They were lillies that left a message saying, "I Love You".

i got TAGGED!!

Layer One: On the outside
Name: Dorothy Tan Eileen
Birth Date: 16.09.Every Year
(*now that u know... i'll be expecting a gift!! :P* )
Current Status: The hunt continues! :P
Eye colour: Brown
Hair colour: Brown
Righty or lefty: Bothy? hehehe... more to Righty tho :D


Layer Two: On the inside
Your Heritage: AH LIAN... NOT!! :P
Your Fears: Creepy Crawlie stuff...
Your Weaknesses: hehehe... *blushes*
Your Perfect Pizza: Italian pizza! It's called Pizza Uno now... yet to go try.. *hint* :P

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: "What day is today?"
Your Bedtime: Early in the morning
Your Most Missed Memory: Youth Camp 2005!

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDs
Single or Group Dates: Hmm... 1st.. get some1 worth my time.. wakakaka!
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Tea or Nestea: Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!!
Cappucinno or Coffee: Mocha?? hehehe


Layer Five: Do You...
Smoke: NEVER!!
Curse: Nope
Take a shower: yup.
Have a crush: *blushes* :p
Think you've been in love: Not sure
Go to school: Used to
Want to get married: I wanna be an independant woman!! But since i'll fail miserably.. i shall just stick to getting married! tee hee!
Believe in yourself: I believe in God.
Think you're a health freak: *drops head down in shame* :P

Layer Six: In the past month
Drank Alcohol: Yup! (chinese rice wine... n i sipped some dunno-wat-drink-is-that from my bro)
Gone to the Mall: Does Summit count? Aihz...
Been on Stage: Yup yup! and i enjoyed every single moment of it ;)
Eaten Sushi: yeah! I want more too! (darling let's go!! the 1 in Asia Cafe is not bad)
Dyed Your Hair: Eee... BU yao!

Layer Seven: Have You Ever...

Played A Stripping Game: NO!
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: I tried??

Layer Eight: Age You're Hoping
To Be Married: aiyo!! who made this tag thingy?? must be 1 that's desperate to get married... tsk tsk tsk :P

Layer Nine: In a Girl/Guy
Best Eye Colour: Hmm... Blue will be nice... but i'll have to go half way round the world to get him... i shall just stick to brown...
Best Hair Colour: Original
Short Hair or Long Hair: Short!

Layer Ten: What Were You Doing..
1 Minute Ago: Tagging
1 Hour Ago: Bathing
Hours Ago: Sleeping
Month Ago: How to remember?? :S
1 Year Ago: Crying and stressing over SPM!! so drama hoh?? :P

Layer Eleven: Finish The Sentence
I Love: myself
I Feel: Hungry!
I Hate: Hot weather
I Hide: and you seek!
I Miss: you you you you you!
I Need: to study!

Layer Twelve: Tag 5 People
Must i tag?? I tag all the ppl in my turtle dove list la.. so if u guys want to do this just go ahead k! *hugs*