How Many Friends Will it Take?

just when each of us wake up to a new day,
just as we breathe in the air,
just as we see the sun and feel its warmth,
just as we have the ability to smile at the fact that we have another day to be around our loved ones...

but what if all of these are taken away from you?
to say goodbye to your loved ones i secondary...
the question is...
DO YOU KNOW WHAT'S NEXT?
what's next after u breathe your last?
reincarnation? u become an angel?

i woke up this morning to something i'm unable to accept...
my primary classmate passed away...
19 years of age,
what has he seen?
what has he done for himself?
what has he accomplished?

to say R.I.P brother is just so... unappropriate...
how can he rest in peace witout having Jesus in his life?
there is NO reincarnation, you DONT become an angel... neither do u roam about earth hauting people... how do i know such things? cause it's stated in the Bible that Heaven and Hell are REAL! we humans have souls, 1 thing that separates us from them; the reason why it's ok to kill a mosquito! and NOT a human. because they dont have souls but we DO!
our souls go to either Heaven or Hell... i dont care bout hell... i want all my sweeties to be in Heaven...
but how do we get there?
it's not the donation you make to orphanage homes,
it's not the seat u gave the granny in the bus,
neither is it the fame and fortune u gathered on earth!
it's JESUS! He's the KEY to heaven! (it's stated in the bible too!)

one way for u to know if what i say is REALLY true... is for u to DIE! but that will be too late, wouldnt it?
How hard is it to accept someone that LOVES you and DIED for YOU!

we werent that close back in primary days... but something could have been done to reach out to him! i missed that opportunity... i couldnt find that door.... now it's shut FOREVER!
accidents have happened, now a life is taken... how many friends will it take for you to wake up and sense the urgency to reach out?

God is speaking, but are you LISTENING?

Let me cry

It's my 3rd day at work... and I've never felt so unhappy... many things are going through my mind now... i feel lonely, i feel tired, i feel dry, i feel empty... i feel unlike ME. I wanna quit! but i cant cause i gave my neighbor (my boss) my word that I'll work with them for 3 weeks... 3 weeks never seemed longer... i'm detached from my life... i get up early in the morning to go get stucked in a jam... come back late in the evening only to GET STUCKED IN THE JAM AGAIN! and be all EXHAUSTED by the time i finish showering...

at work i'm like this kuli that carries files and boxes... do i look like i'm the brawny type? i find it hard to communicate with my colleagues... there are so many new faces... i just cant seem to connect with them!

i totally miss college life! i miss MY life! (i wanna cry!!!)

to make things worse... my memory's playing tricks on me... little things kept occurring, reminding me of my sad memories... a song, numbers... FILE NAMES!!! *ARGH!!!!* why wouldnt you, BOTH of you just leave me alone!!!

altho i dont like SEGi (the way they manage things) but i miss that white-full-of-cobwebs-and-cracks building... and most of all, i miss the people in it! i cant wait for the 19th to come!

i could really use a shoulder now...