EighToNine

been reading some blogs... on how frens have been rethinking 08... well.. i havent been reminiscing about 2008.. cause i was procrastinating? *lalala*
nonetheless, i'm thankful that i could just sit here and type! :D
there were certainly ups and downs in 2008,
1 particular down would be my studies!!!
didnt do too well in my spring sem... summer was good =) but then fall... ha! results arent out yet.. am trusting for a miracle!! oh well, will try harder this year! =)

oh ya! my 2008's resolution! to be a better daughter! *lalala* lets just say... i'll be setting that as my 09's resolution too! :P

hmm.. as for UPs!
my skin's recovering! PRAISE THE LORD! altho it has occasional bumps... due to haywired sleepin time... i'm very happy it's not painful to smile anymore =)
much thanks to Sab's mom!!! love ya! :D

much more happened thru out the year.. but like i said.. i havent been thinkin about it.. so i'm typing as what comes to my mind (and clearly at 2.. with NO afternoon naps.. my mind doesnt have pretty much in it! :P)

since i cant think of anything rite now... i'll entertain u with some pics k!

the umbrella gals! :D

from left: Dot (excuse the hair :S), Sarah, Mei Fong and Viv
(left Sonee in church after taking this pic...)

ha! and my FIRST 09 picture was taken with Tay Jo!
it was the 1 and only actually :P
feels GREAT having Sonee back! :D

ooh! my first dinner in 2009, Sizzling Lamb Chop from Salmon Steak
altho it wasnt some canggih place... but i'm still happy cause i LOOOOVVVVEEEEEEEEEE Lamb!!! :D

after dinner we went to Carrefour... heh! of all the places to go on New Year's Day hoh?
and i got THIS!
no... my toes are naturally long... :P
notice the red-ness of my baby toe?
*sobs* i stumped my baby toe on the trolley!!! :'(
it was only a slight bump... but it hurt REAL bad...
oh ya.. if u look carefully, u can see a blister at the eye of my baby toe too!
got that when i went to pyramid with yen on Wed cause i wore pumps.
poor baby toe...

the verdict is CLEAR: i'm a FlipFlops gal! but i wouldnt mind pretty/hot heels as long as i dont have to walk consecutively for half and hour in them! :P

ah ha! my 2009's resolution:
besides being a better daughter...
i wanna stop eating supper (which i've failed TERRIBLY at keeping cause we had refreshments after watch nite service... and after having the porridge... koko gave me a choc muffin!! how to resist le? :P)
i wanna be more consistent in my spiritual walk =)
since dieting is IMPOSSIBLE for me, i will do more sit ups and lunges (walking and jogging is still a NO NO for Dot :P)
lastly, i wanna sleep by 1 am everynight! (cause i dont want to get scolding from my beautician *teehee*)

heh! i have no idea how would 2009 be like for me...
and i cant say that i'll be ready come what may...
but 1 thing for sure, i'll face it with FAITH!

to all my readers, wishing you a HAPPY New Year would be rather cliche... looking at the economic crisis across the globe... can this New Year really be a HAPPY one?

so i'll wish you a
FAITHFUL New Year instead!

Faith is believing without seeing...
you may not be able to see the blessings laid before you in 2009 (because it's only the 2nd day of the year... :P)
or maybe your vision is too blurred by the bad news that's been hurled at you daily...
when Hope is vague, have FAITH!
for He is FAITHFUL, and His grace is sufficient for you!

so once again, have a

FAITHFUL New Year!

Treadmill

FINALLY!!! i is done with ALL my assignments!

but i have 2 quizzies and my FINALS to do... and i'll be FREE!!! :D

i cant wait... i cant wait... I CANT WAIT!!!!

anyways.. this post aint about me (well... the important part aint bout me la... :P)

the about me part: (this post is 2 days behind time... thanks to my assignment!) i had a dizzy spell on me on tues :( didnt get to do anything that night (thank God it happened at night.. if morn... then i would have missed class!) *ok Dot... get to ur POINT! :P*

so yes.. the dizzy spell... i lied in bed... practically all nite la.. couldnt really sleep... then i thot.. hmm.. i should BLOG about this... so my readers can SAYANG me... :P NO!! this blog aint about getting love.. i'm not that desperate la :P YES! I'M GETTIN TO MY POINT!!! :P

then i tot... wat should i title this post? my ideas:-
1. walking on clouds (cause i was all floaty... but then again... i wasnt really in love... u know how they associate clouds to being in love... so NEH... NEXT!)
2. walking on a TREADMILL (erm... NOPE! i didnt see the connection ANYWHERE!)

BUT!!!

more tots came...

the NOT about Dot part :P :

life is associated to a race... (well.. if u didnt know that... YES! life is usually associated to a RACE... SEE! u always learn something reading Dot's blog :P) u can choose to run it.. or walk it...

and DEATH is your finishing line... (we'll all be rewarded according to how we've ran our race)

HOWEVER... in this Race, u're not running against other runners... instead... u are running against YOURSELF! (pushing yourself towards the finishing line, perseverance we call it!)

but...

how often is it that we get frustrated and worn out because it seemed like we've done so much and tried so hard... only to realise that we're still back at SQUARE ONE!

you run and run and RUN...

but when u look around you (at the problems you face) NOTHING HAS CHANGED!

then you look down...

and you see THIS!


u've been running on a TREADMILL all these while!

been there? done that? how did/would u feel?

U scream out in anger! cry out in disappointment! regret! feel cheated... *the emo list goes on*

but WAIT!

think deeper, look further, listen closely...

a Voice is saying...

altho it seems like u've gone NOWHERE...

look at your legs dear, look at the MUSCLES u've built!

check out your STAMINA!

sometimes in this race called LIFE, we're placed on a TREADMILL... as a training ground for us...

Yes... it's difficult... ask any athlete... did their medal come easy?

Treadmill seasons make our legs stronger, so we DONT stumble easily in our race...
Treadmill seasons increase our stamina, so we CAN run FURTHER and LAST LONGER!
the tougher your Treadmill Season is, the further and longer u can run!
so...

PRESS ON! dont give up!

cause...

one day my friend, u'll reach your finishing line...


one day my friend, u'll receive your DIAMOND STUDDED medal! (what's Gold then? ;) )



till that day comes my friend, i'll run along with you and cheer u on! =)

Closure

It has been a year of ups and downs for me...
Ups being the things that went smoothly... my studies, the fun i had...
Downs being the times that i know something's just not right, it's like i lost the passion... i lost the excitement... i just felt LOST! (it's kinda hard to describe cause most wont understand... so i shall skip the EMO part to the VICTORIOUS part!!!)

i'm ever grateful to You, because in You i'm FOUND!!!!

most of you might know that i went for the BEST YOUTH CAMP ever!!! (*ahem* not because i'm in the committee this year.. but because it gets BETTER every year! :D)

here are some pics that i took of the CHAMPIONS of me HEART *drumrolls* *drumroll continues* :P MAWSON PEAK!!!!

this is a summary of what they did for the skit presentation in the camp...

Brian (red) a smoker... has a friend Isaac (blue) a believer...

One by one, life and promises of the World turned their back against Brian... the Doc told him he has cancer of the lung... his wife and son left him... his boss threatens to FIRE him...

Is there anymore HOPE for Brian???
In this pic...
Isaac: No... Dont jump!!!
(however... something i dont understand... y is he smiling???)

Never give up, Jesus loves you, and He'll NEVER forsake you!

The enemy came to steal, kill and destroy, BUT Jesus came to give life and life ABUNDANTLY!!!

(to all my dearies, at times of trials in this comin New Year, remember this: Anyone who calls upon the name of Jesus will be saved :) )

callin all believers!!!
Gear up! GO! Tell the WORLD!!!

for Everybody ought to know... that JESUS LIVES!!!!

give it up for....
the MAWSON PEAK!!!!
with the FAITH of Mawson Peak,
Mountains CRUMBLE at our feet!!!
Amen? :D
The setting of the sun marks the end of 2007
All Good memories are held tightly
As for emo times... let them set with the sun
Look forward to the horizon, a new work has BEGUN!

To ALL my dearies, may ALL your wishes and dreams come true in the Coming Year!
thanks for being there for me!
Love all of you LOTS!!!!

MUAX!!!!!

HOT STUFF!

*sizzle... SIZZLE*

dont you just LOVE the weekends? i know i always look forward to them! :D

what do you do during your weekends? i do what i do best... BUM! :P TV!! NAP!!

but this weekend is different... altho it isnt over... i have 1 more day to go... :D it impacted me!

it started Friday afternoon... (i shall speak as if it's Friday la k!)

there's gonna be a conference at nite, and there's gonna be QUIZ on Monday! ISH! so there i was STUDYING :D usually... i fall asleep... i sing... i day dream... but this time.. i said a short prayer.. i told God i wanted to go with an expectant heart, i wanted to RECEIVE!

and when it comes to God... do I ever get disappointed??

NEVER! (well.. u gotta know wat u're asking for la.. :D)

it has been a dry season for me... it felt as if i lost it.. i lost the enthusiasm.. i lost the joy.. i even lost the faith (when it comes to giving up my time)

my life just evolved around college... getting the A's, having fun... but when i'm alone, i know something's missing.

psychology has been something that i wanted to do... but after a year in the course... being bombarded with books, facts (so-called ones), quizzes, exams, assignments... it feels like i'm in this cloud of confusion..

before stepping into college life, pursuing psych.. i had ONE fear... what if the lecturers blacklist me because i dont agree with homosexuality? (that was the only example i could think of cause i'm a GOOD STUDENT :P) cause all the counsellors like Dear Thelma in Star papers say it's "OK to be GAY, u DONT have to care of what others say!"

i find that NONSENSICAL! so i concluded that i will stick to my beliefs and be a difference as a psychologist (in the future)

NOW! back to being in the cloud of confusion...

i took up Ethics last sem.. and that caused me to think.. maybe we should accept homosexuals, cause we're called to hate the sin, NOT the sinners... but that birthed another question... how far should the acceptance go?

THIS SEM: my lect told us that we should be neutral toward our clients and the issues they face, e.g. homosexuality. we musnt let our own opinions interfere with the way we treat our clients...

this got me to think... yea.. i should be professional.. BUT!! i'll be no different from Dear Thelma! but then again.. if i insist on following my beliefs... i mite lose my license as a psychologist! (this is the part where my leaders will think "oh dear.. we're losing Dot) ...to be continued...

SEE! all these wouldnt have happened if we humans arent that crooked minded! (but this isnt what i'm bloggin bout)

... the continuation...

it was this weekend that blew the clouds away!

i may lose my license (that's if we're like docs and lawyers and we need license to practice.. i dunno.. so lets assume we need la.. :P) as a psychologist if i stick to my beliefs (which is.. if u still dont know.. HOMOSEXUALITY is PROHIBITED! GOD does NOT like it! It's in the BIBLE!).. so what?! SCREW the license! cause i wouldnt make it as a psychologist if it wouldnt be for God's hands! a line has to be drawn;

mark my words, (i mean seriously, if i dont keep to my word(s), slap me before i ruin lives!)

in the future, if a teen with sexual orientation issues comes to me, i will tell him/her that it's WRONG! simply because it's the TRUTH! what this World lacks is the TRUTH!

the past year has been so redundant, it was all about the datelines, the A's... i honestly lost the passion, the reason for me wanting to be a psychologist- all i wanted to do was to serve and be a vessel in His hands.

i stood there at the altar, thinking of what i wanted... i asked for something which i didnt know wat it was... i didnt even know if i received it... but now as i'm writing, it's all starting to make sense! =)

i've regained my passion, my direction!

so yea... what have i done this weekend? like i've said.. i went for a conference!

*tada*

these are all the pics i have.. cause i forgot to bring my camera :P

the speaker was awesome... he was funny, but most of all, he gave us the TRUTH!

but neh.. i aint gonna give him all the credit cause he was only an available vessel in the Master's hands. (just like me! :D)

ALL Glory belongs to the Lord! =)

i've learnt lots more, but to sum it all up:

Some things just ARENT optional!

How Many Friends Will it Take?

just when each of us wake up to a new day,
just as we breathe in the air,
just as we see the sun and feel its warmth,
just as we have the ability to smile at the fact that we have another day to be around our loved ones...

but what if all of these are taken away from you?
to say goodbye to your loved ones i secondary...
the question is...
DO YOU KNOW WHAT'S NEXT?
what's next after u breathe your last?
reincarnation? u become an angel?

i woke up this morning to something i'm unable to accept...
my primary classmate passed away...
19 years of age,
what has he seen?
what has he done for himself?
what has he accomplished?

to say R.I.P brother is just so... unappropriate...
how can he rest in peace witout having Jesus in his life?
there is NO reincarnation, you DONT become an angel... neither do u roam about earth hauting people... how do i know such things? cause it's stated in the Bible that Heaven and Hell are REAL! we humans have souls, 1 thing that separates us from them; the reason why it's ok to kill a mosquito! and NOT a human. because they dont have souls but we DO!
our souls go to either Heaven or Hell... i dont care bout hell... i want all my sweeties to be in Heaven...
but how do we get there?
it's not the donation you make to orphanage homes,
it's not the seat u gave the granny in the bus,
neither is it the fame and fortune u gathered on earth!
it's JESUS! He's the KEY to heaven! (it's stated in the bible too!)

one way for u to know if what i say is REALLY true... is for u to DIE! but that will be too late, wouldnt it?
How hard is it to accept someone that LOVES you and DIED for YOU!

we werent that close back in primary days... but something could have been done to reach out to him! i missed that opportunity... i couldnt find that door.... now it's shut FOREVER!
accidents have happened, now a life is taken... how many friends will it take for you to wake up and sense the urgency to reach out?

God is speaking, but are you LISTENING?

Present Tense

Time is FLYING

God is MOVING

Revival is HAPPENING

but why are you RESTING???