Let the pictures do the Talking =)

Then...

(Long LONG time ago... prolly 4-5 yrs? :D)

Now!!!

Arent we pretty? :P

(25.03.2007)

Of Fries and Fingers

(April 2006)

My passion...

FOOD! :D

(somewhere in early Feb 2007)

^ the EVER HOT aunt and her niece :P

(11.03.2007)

Hot aunt =P

yesterday was my niece- Melanie's birthday (some ppl tell me that the title niece and nephew only applies to the children of your siblings... but coming from a typical chinese family... the whole title thing is VERY important... so somehow la.. i ended up as an aunt at SIX!! anyways...) she's 12 now!

i did a lil math after telling em that...

see... my niece's got a brother- Nicholas... my nephew la... he's turning 13 at the end of this month! =)

and i'm turning 19 this year... so hoh...

15 years down the line...

Nicholas will be 28, Melanie 27 and me... hehe... 34

by then, both of them will most likely be married... and have their own kids RITE???
that means i'll be a GRANDanut!!!

i'll be a HOT grandaunt! muahahahahahahaha!

*this is a friendly reminder: this is MY blog... so i get to SS as much as i want! muahahahahaha! :P

all smiles! =)

today's a very happeee day for me! :D

exams over!!! i can finally breathe!! (well... for one day la.. cuz got many assignments due soon!! oh well... happy tots dot, happy tots!)

yes! exams... mid terms... aihz.. no eye see! God, I did my part, it's Your turn now :D so readers, wait for my good news k!

but then hoh... can i emofy a lil?? i miss acting!!! i seriously do! i'm now listening to the songs i used for my play... all the sweet memories!! =) me cant stop smiling!!!

oh ya! and i've been excited the whole week... wanna know why??? cuz of STRONGER!! (i kinda lazy to download the flyer... :P) but i believe it's gonna be fun fun FUN!!! (btw, it's a concert by my church la :D) will get some pics k!

i know it's bout time i posted something that rhymes that's happy... considering my previous posts that sounds emo-fied (but just to make things clear... it's good emo k! cuz He loves me! ;) ) HOWEVER, i wrote this 2 days back... and i'm to happy now i cant really gather my tots to write something happi-fying ^^"

ere it is, i call it... I NEED YOU

In the absence of my mind i did a lil math,
What would life be if i didnt follow Your path;
To party all night, sing 'I Did It My Way',
To live a life that has gone astray.

Life without You seemed a bundle of fun,
It wont be as boring as the one's lived by a nun;
Alcohol, boys, to be checked and done,
So what if i'm broke by the end of the month?

As i calculated, the fun was gone,
Life without You = i cant carry on;
Dead ends, stress, hurts and pain,
The 'fun' i had was all in vain.

It's no wonder why You kept calling,
You went on talking even when i wasnt listening;
You were always there knocking on my door,
My sins and shame on the cross You bore.

What took me so long to realise,
What was it that blinded my eyes?
Since the beginning it was You,
This is my confession- I need You!

I Love You too! =)

A thousand pieces shattered i was,
I tried to fix me but a piece was lost;
UHU, Elephant and Super Glue,
I tried everything but my days remained blue.

They told me You are a special potter,
You mend hearts and make them feel better;
But i thought to me, I dont deserve Your time,
Why would You mend this heart of mine?

You assured me once, You assured me twice,
That the words of the enemy are nothing more but lies;
I felt a certain burden lifted from me,
As You embraced me and said, "My child be free."

Be free from shattered-ness,
For I have made you whole;
Be free from loneliness,
For I will walk with you till your days of old.

The missing piece was finally found,
My heart was free, i was no longer bound;
My life is now colored, no longer just blue,
I owe this to You, thank You and i love You too! =)

...tears to my eyes...

Before the world began, you were on His mind
And every tear you cry, is precious in His eyes
Because of His great Love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done, so you would come...

Nothing you can do, to make Him love you more
Nothing that you've done, would make Him close the door
Because of His great Love, He gave his only Son
Everything was done, so you would come...

Come to the Father, though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives, He will take them all
The power of the Word, the power of His blood
Everything was done so you would come...

the song above never fails to bring tears to my eyes... it reminds me of how much He loves me :) oh ya! and so... i wrote this:

Darkness came, i was filled with fright,
There was nothing i could do but break down and cry;
Then a still small voice said: 'Let there be light',
I turned and saw You, my shinning knight.

You took my hand and held me close,
You smiled and touched my little nose;
Guilty tears rolled down my cheeks,
I knew you've missed me for many weeks.

Where have i been, what have i done??
Ashamed I was , so i tried to run;
But You said to me, "No, I wont let go,
I love you, and that you must know."

How can i deny Your sweet sweet love,
Your peace and joy that comes from above;
Many years, aimless i roamed,
Now in Your arms, i'm finally HOME. :)

hehe... it was done in 15 mins la.. so pls pardon my amature-ness k! :P and yes! my VERY SS bestie asked me to include this--> EMILY IS SO LOVELY (she claims that it rhymes -.-")

p.s Em: see! told ya i'll add it in my blog! :P

but yes, it's been a roller coaster ride for me, and girl, i really thank you for standing by me. and of course my many many sweeties that stood by me when i needed them. Love you Girls!! muaxX!

Mission C.N.Y :D

What else?

Collect ang pao and PIG la!! yippee!! :P

Angels on mission?

Pig in ACTION!

for more pics, go to my cell blog

The ADAM's (my brother) Family

The 1st Generation and me! err... my cousin's in the pic cuz i've got some superstitious ppl at home la... they say if there's only 3 ppl in a pic... something bad will happen.. 1 will "break off"

MY QUESTION IS... what if it's a family of THREE?? they gonna carry some stranger's kid? :S

The 3rd generation!! my cousins and i! there's more of us TANs... but my bro and i not very the smart la.. we didnt think of having a COUSIN photo til like... the END of the day.. so... :P




The FOURTH generation!! keng le my family... :D (Co-en's the original Tan)

SO cute rite?? no one asked them to do the kawaii thingy... kids ARE getting smarter these days!

The...

The Vainess! :P
(preparing for the Dinner...)

The Crowd

The FOOD!!!
These were the biggest scallops (still with their shells) i've ever seen! the orange thingy are supposed to be eggs la... how true?? wo bu chi dao ^^" it's edible tho... :D

Check out the size of the prawn compared to my fork and spoon!! (actually it's just big at its head la... OTAK UDANG! :P)

The FUN!

See... family dinners were usually dull for me.. communications were limited to... "so how's college?" cuz my cousins and i have VERY BIG age gaps...

HOWEVER!!! things got a lil different this time! thanks to my not-so-related relative from S'pore. He brought a game along with him- SNORTA! it was super stressful but yet fun FUN FUN!!!

The Players

L-R Cousin sis No. 1, Cousin bro No. 7, Not-so-related relative, Aunt No.5, My mom, Cousin bro No. 12 (youngest)

~The END~

Yo Yo Baby wishes you...

Hey peeps! I'm Yo Yo Baby! And on behalf of Dot, i'd like to wish u peeps out there a...

BLESSED CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

(kay... i know i'm cute... but gotta run now! it's ANG PAO time! :P)

LOVEstrucked!

Hari Valentina aku...

My lovelies!
Cuties! YUMMIES...

*teehee*

Thanks girls for making my Valentine's special! MUAXX!

WHY???

:P

Nick left us... err.. let me rephrase... he... ya la.. he left us.. as in he went overseas (Melbourne) la... ish... :P

Group pic at the airport (Xanna and Enoch MIA at this time... *oops*)

Dont worry Nick... altho u left... we still had our appetites with us :P

We PARTAY-ed with Korean BBQ *yummie*

p.s: for more on what happened on the 10th of Feb... pls check out http://mycellgroup.blogspot.com/

GONE!

It... It.... It's GONE!!!

just in case u all forgot or didnt notice... i posted that something was GOING... and now... it's GONE!!

Teehee! spot what's GONE!! :P

hot hOT HOT!!!

y is the weather so hot???

i'm craving for choc brownies and ramli burger now!!!

this is THE most wu liao post i've ever posted! :P

SHOOT ME!

OOH! something UNintellectual and (i would wanna say UNprofessional.. but considering they were just a bunch of students which are nothing but professional WANNABES!! ok fine.. i'll just use the word for their sake) UNprofessional happened in my anthropology class...

Dear readers...
Let me ask u...
1. When someone's presenting... n u get to ask questions... do u ask to gain more knowledge or just to put the presenter on the spot??

2. Before asking, will you confirm and REconfirm that your question really relates to the TOPIC?

3. If 1 wishes to voice his/her opinion, shouldn't he/she wait till the presenter's DONE presenting?

Oh ya! 1 more...
4. Should't you speak up only when u MAKE SENSE?

So yea.. this was what happened...
We were supposed to present on our opinion towards an article about Malaysia being a 'boleh-land'. And me.. sounding like a duck (hey! i'm not feelin well k! :P) we sent Yue lo... But guessed what?? she was just stating the points that we discussed.. and when she came to the point that B.M isnt widely used by Malaysians and our reason? Cuz B.M wont bring us far...
Think about it...
1. Will u still use B.M in college or Uni if u don't have Malay friends?
2. Will u still use B.M in U.K, U.S or somewhere closer to home- Singapore?
3. Look at Siti Nurhaliza (no offense to her fans.. i like her songs too! :D) and Kelly Clarkson... who sold more albums? Who's more recognised? Both can sing... but it's the LANGUAGE they sing in!
4. Out of the BILLIONS of ppl we have on planet Earth... how many people actually UNDERSTAND B.M? (i doubt ALL Malaysians know the language)

... Enough points stated to back up our point... which (just in case you still havent notice) is "B.M wont bring us far"

So yea... suddenly some joker stood up and started bombarding Yue with questions!! 1 asked her... "So are u trying to say u arent proud of ur National Language?" Which Yue clearly replied "NO, that wasnt wat i meant" But somehow... more and more ppl started joining in the SENSE-less bombarding! Asking her if she calls herself a Malaysian and all... *shakes head*

Me... being a team mate.. (a voiceless one... or got voice but not as sweet.. *lalala* :P) was trying my best to find some points to counter 'attack' but my brains... aihz... quite the slow...

Oh well.. this whole story is actually POINTLESS cuz it never should have happened... at the end of the day... half the class still didnt get the idea that B.M wont get us far... were they defending from a patriotic point of view or just to put Yue down... 'wo bu chi dao'

Oh ya! of course i managed to stand up and defend our point... despite my manly voice...

How did it end? honestly.. i cant remember.. cuz i felt so sick and tired after talking to them... u know.. arguing over NOTHING... aihz... i guess it ended when some girl stood up and said some SUPER out of the topic stuff...

anyways... i might not be fluent with my B.M and hence not use it unless my life depends on it... watcha gonna do? Shoot me?

24

This is a story i wrote today. Inspired by Joy and Mr VJ.. tot of sending it to Random... but just in case it doesnt get pass the editor... hehe... i wish to share it with you all ere! ;)

24

Today’s the 25th January, 2007. It is now 14.15. I couldn’t believe I made it through the marathon of pregnancy; I received my reward, YOU. Images of me holding your hands as you walk your very first steps, driving you to school, braiding your hair, waiting for you at the door on Prom Night, kissing you on your Graduation Day, and finally seeing you have a family of your own and your little reward kept me going for the final four hours in the delivery ward. Then alas, I heard you cry. I held you in my arms; your body so frail, skin so delicate and your features- beautiful. I knew the images I had of our future will come to pass. The nurses bathed you and took you for some medical procedures thinking that I would need some rest. Instead, my face was gleaming with joy and I wouldn’t stop staring at the door, waiting for them to bring you back. Thank goodness they did so in time for I was about to storm into the nurses’ office to demand for my baby!

I held you close to my bosom as I watched you sleep. Then there was a knock on the door, it was the doctor. She came in and told me this, “I’m sorry ma’am that you have to hear this; your child has an under developed brain and she will only have a week to live…” My senses went numb and I could no longer hear what the doctor was saying for in my eyes, my baby was perfect. I regained my senses as the first tear drop touched my cheek. The doctor said that your other organs are in perfect condition and with your life; you can save the lives of 7 other babies. I swear that I would have slapped that woman that very moment, “How dare she ask of me the permission to kill my child? Who cares about the other babies? There are so many more babies in the world, why must mine sacrifice???” But I saw tears forming in her eyes. She knew no mother deserved to be asked to take the life of her child for she was a mother herself. However, as a professional, she had to consider the life of the 7 babies. She swallowed her tears and continued, “We can’t wait for a week because her organs will deteriorate as the days go by.” My thoughts turned to groans as I shouted, “GET OUT!!!”

With all the energy I had left in my body, I held you and I stormed out of my room; we’re going HOME! On our way out, we passed the baby ward and at the corner of my eye, I saw 7 babies, each in a box with a maze of tubes surrounding them. I felt a pinch in my heart but nothing was going to stop me; this baby in my hands belongs to ME!

As we reached home, I took you to your room. You didn’t open your eyes but I understood; they were too delicate for light. I didn’t put you in your cot; I couldn’t bear letting go of you! I held you close wherever I went. I changed your diapers and when you made sounds, I fed you with my breast. Oh how I wished time would freeze at that magical moment. I stayed up all night guarding my baby; I struggled for I knew ultimately, there was nothing that I could do to protect you from the Death Angel. Helpless, I prayed…

The next morning after feeding you, I took you for a stroll in the park and took pictures of us. Passer bys told me you were beautiful; in my heart I whispered, “I know”. But the time has come, I took you to the hospital; the corridors never felt colder. I gathered myself as I kissed you goodbye. As I handed you to the doctor, I asked, “Will it hurt?” With assurance in her eyes, she shook her head. I couldn’t hold back any more; tears flushed down my cheeks as I see you cry in the arms of a stranger. The doctor hugged me tightly. With my blurred vision, I watched my baby leave me...

I could have chosen to be bitter and kept you with me even if it was just a week. But then I recalled the moment I passed the baby ward, I realized although the images I had of our future couldn’t come to pass through you, they may come to life through the lives of the 7 babies! With a part of you living in each of them, their mothers would be able to hold their hands as they walk their first steps, drive them to school, braid their hair or bandage their football bruises, wait for them at the door on Prom Night, kiss them on their Graduation Day, and finally see them have their own families and little rewards…

I have no regrets with my decision; I’ve had 24 hours with an angel- YOU. Today’s the 26th of January, 2007; it is now 14.15.

Written by,
Dot

Clouds on a Sunny Day

Classes ended earlier than expected today (wasnt supposed to have class but lect couldnt make it next monday so she replaced the class today), thanks to our merciful lecturer.

It was noon and i had to walk across the pedestrain bridge to get across where my dad would pick me up. Altho it was only a 5 minute walk (if i hurried myself)... with the scorching sun... those 5 minutes may seem forever!! So.. genius me.. decided to go into summit and wait a lil while n pray that clouds will come to cover the sun! n guess what?? Jesus LOVES me!! i visited me bro at starbucks.. (tot of getting a drink.. but then decided not to :D) n the sun disappeared!! How did i know?? cuz i couldnt see the shadows of the trees! n everything seemed a lil dimmed! YIPPEE!!

altho there was still a lil heat in the air... i had the pleasure of not getting me skin burned!

*count your blessings even if they're just clouds on a sunny day* :)

GOING...

GOING SOON

Going where?

What's gonna go?

Who's gonna go?

Stay tuned to find out! :P

I REPENT!!!

*sobb sobb*

i went to class today.. it was fun! but then again... i felt stupid... AGAIN!! this time not cuz of english grammar terms... but current issues!!!

i was never a news reader... when i get the papers... comics n the tv guide were all i cared about...

so today.. when i went to my Contemporary Ethics class... i was like *blink blink* then the lecturer- Mr. VJ told us he wants us to be argumentative, to have our own opinion... then i was like *blink blink blink... bluuuurrr* cuz i knew nuts about current issues!! *blushes*
*pouts* guess i should start readin a lil more huh?? :(

cant news be FUN?? ISH!!!

coooookie...

i had this craving for cookies from Famous Amos since 2 days ago i think... but it was not met la.. cuz expensive ma.. so i kinda forgot about it (seldom happens... usually when i crave... i MUST have :D)

But last nite... my once-in-a-blue-moon-nice brother brought back cookies... IMPORTED ones, sold in starbucks! (this 1 he bought la.. hehe.. no free..)

tada!!

Rm 10 something... altho it's looks as big as a bag of dog food... (my cam was super near it)

in this bag.... there were EIGHT pieces of cookies.. well.. u do the math la.. how much per cookie

THE COOKIE! it's around the size of chipsmore.. but not as round.. n those brown thingies.. are choc CHUNKS!!! *muahahahahahaha*

behold... moi... enjoying every bite of the cookie n posing... wakakkaka! look like angel or not?? :P :P

so yea.. my cravings were met after all! Jesus loves me :D

A Priceless Journey

ok fine... it cost me RM 2... :P

12.00 am this morning... after finding out i wont be goin to 1U afterall... i msged me bestie to ask if she wants to watch Nite At Museum.. (everyone said it was nice so i knew i had to watch it!) and the journey BEGUN! well of course i needed a driver.. to thanks to nick- our ahmad for the day :D ( told Joel i treat my drivers NICE... eh.. i brought nick along for the movie le.. wakakakak! :P)

We were supposed to pick Emily from college at 10.15 n head to pyramid for the 11.50 movie... HOWEVER... i thot of being nice to me wonderful cell leader miss Jo Koo.. by having lunch with her.. (she's in SJMC!!! no... she's not sick.. but she's working there!! as a KULI! <--- *i was just stating wateva u said Jo..* she's working there as a trainee pharmacist la... Anyways.. this is ME blog.. so shud be talkin more about me hoh? :P :P

So yea.. we postponed our movie.. bought the 1410 tickets instead.. walked aimless n not to mention CASHLESSly around pyramid... (bought a SUPER CUTE shirt tho *lalala*) n headed HAPPILY to SJMC! (i was never happier to go to a hospital!! :P)

And ere comes the CLIMAX of me journey!! had lunch at this place called 'Bawang Merah' n guess wat?? it started to RAIN!! (cats n dogs mind u) it was 1345 then.. movie was at 1410!! so HOW???

hehehe...

Nick our hero wannabe wanted to run to his car... which is parked about 300 meters away... n drive to us.. but being... CONSIDERATE... we stopped him. It was a ALL FOR 1 and 1 FOR ALL moment!! so... we went in to 7/11... bought ourselves RAINCOATS!!! u know.. those pathetic- plastic-bag-like-however-life-saving ones?? (will get a pic of it when i'm not as tired la.. :P) And it cost RM 2.00 la.. i put mine on.. (the last time i wore a raincoat was when i was std ONE!! this was my chance!! :D) but jo and the MOST VAIN one- emily didnt wanna feel embarrassed.. so they just spread out the raincoat over themselves... *sad i tell u* oh ya! our hero wannabe wanted to maintain his MANLiness.. he walked in the rain... VAIN! :P

the FUN didnt just end there... we had to run 300 meters to our car.. not to mention cross THREE roads! (see... by that time.. i was euphoric with the whole me-wearing-a-raincoat-at-the-age-of-19 experience... so i wasnt really looking at the cars..) i screamed at me highest pitch.. (cuz i was wearing sandals.. n they were slippery!) and RAN! thank God the cars were pretty slow.. :D

so yea.. went in the car.. made it safely to pyramid, before our movie started! hehe..

~the end~ *how was your day?*

*oops*

how could i forget my new year's resolution???

It's...

:P

*squinch*

... it's a feeling which my heart feels when i'm sad... (literally)

i cried myself to sleep last nite...

Cause i read some touching stories in Chicken Soup for the Woman's Soul :D they were nice *thanks Jo!*

there was a quote in 1 of those stories saying that the bitterest tears shed at a grave are the words left unsaid and the actions left undone...

It got me thinkin... what if the loved ones i have now die the next moment?
I dont wanna cry those bitter tears...

So to all my readers,
JESUS LOVES YOU!!!

there's no need to debate if Christianity's real... all you need to know is that Jesus is REAL and that he came and died on the cross for u n i!

How hard is it to accept someone that loves you??

now, do you have something that u wanna tell me? :D

The Hills Are ALIVE!!!

muahahahaha! with DOT around... even a STONED hill will come to life!

Presentng... CAMERONS!
This is PART of our convoy.. we had 10 cars and 2 vans that went up.. KENG le?? i is in one of the vans... it was fun FUN FUN!

and a little cam whoring on our way up to camerons :D

peeps in Van 2! sadly couldnt get uncle Eu Jin in the pic.. well.. he was DRIVIN ma!! :P

BOH plantation! say oni 2 km.. ADVENTUROUS ride it was!! :S but once again.. FUN!!

So nice rite?? how i wished i'd have a house on the top of a hill! oh ya... btw.. this is a pic of bungalows at the plantation... it's kinda small.. i tried me best to ZOOOOOM in d.. hehehe! they are really nice.. got the English kinda feel... u know wat i mean?? :P

Cell pic!! From left: enoch, jo and the ever beautiful me!! muahahaha! (it is MY blog afterall! :P)

more pics to come!! but this blogger.. so irritating.. got limit to the pics i can post up!! argh!! n i lazy to get those flickr thingy.. so ya lo.. hehehe!

History is Made!!!!

Can u all see the content of me pic??? i WON!!! for the very FIRST time!!! Oh ya.. it's called the game of Hearts la.. (i've got a confession to make tho... despite winning this game... i still dont undesrtand this game!! *blushes* so any1 that understands... can pls explain it to me?? hehehe)

What is in Your Hands?

Time?
Opportunity?
Money?
Relationships?

2006 has passed and a New Year has come... what have you done to grasp what is placed in your hands? Have you let your so called important- things-in-life slip you by into eternity?

OR...

Are you holding on to something that has already slipped you by so tightly til it's hurting u and others? (trust me it hurts! Once, i went ice skating with my darling... i held on so tightly that the next day... hehe.. both our hands ached! *blushes*)

A Recap of 2006- 2nd half

WAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Can u sense the EVILNESS?? Muahahahahaha!

At our Public Speakin Play. Moi was the EVIL SNOW QUEEN!! MUAHAHAHAHA! :P

This is the WOMAN that bullies me!! hehehe! this is Munirah, my supervisor in SEGi.. remember.. i have to WORK for them for my scholarship?? aihz.... but Mun's very nice! :)

On a mission to bless kids!! but in returned... this BIG baby was blessed instead!! :D

My other darling and I! Celebrated her birthday at the Curve! MuaXx!

At Camerons!! Awesome camp it was! :D

My Darling and I! We were preparing for our CF Christmas Party... but we got bored.. so... Muahahahaha!

Err... these pics are not really in order la.. cuz i kinda forgot which came 1st.. la la la la :P but yea.. these were the special moments i had in 2006!

Thanks to all of you that made them possible! love ya all!! MuaxX!

A Recap of 2006- 1st half

Goodness! there were so many things that i did thru out last year! i'll just let the pics do MOST of the talking la! :P

Went to Malacca for our BabA Nyonya project-Malaysian Studies (LAN)

This was where new friendships started to build. Love ya Girls!! muax!

Wrote & Directed a short clip (for Baba Nyonya project)- It Took a Dream

Did a photoshoot for the Nursing Programme in my college... didnt really like the pics taken... but oh well.. it's just for the fun! :P

Leo Installation!! i'm still wondering why on earth did i get myself into this nonsense?? ME? the secretary?? bah! such a joke!

Halloween party 2006! didnt manage to go but i saw my gals all dwessed up!! they're all grown up!! *teary eyes* wakakakkaka! :P

Christmas partay!! group photo of cell members!! hehe...

So u thot i forgot pics of my own birthday la... wakakakaka! how is that possible?? but i noticed the pics i took for me birthday celebration wasnt that nice.. so shy to post up la.. :P

A Beginning of a New Chapter-2007

while everyone's busy partying away... i had my fair share too!! after church we went to Jay's house for supper n some fun! :D

Now wat's fun without a LITTLE camwhoring?? muahahahahaha!

fan ban (pirated in cantonese) batman and i

What's new year celebration without a LITTLE drinkin?? wakakakakaka!

And LOTS of PIGGIN?? *blushes*

This is one of the MANY moments which i turned around n told the rest i felt STUPID!!! :(

hehehe... despite that.. *blushes* i had lots of fun tonite! i hope u ppl had your share of the new year spirit too! HUGS!